i swear i feels like i wanna cry
i always wish that today will be the best day ever ..
but you dont meant it right?
it's our 8th anniversary but you don't evern says a word to me
how could you?
you always make me wanna cry ?
you know that i'm scared of losing you
how dare you treated me like this?
what have i done to you?
just say it !
we have passed this for 8 months and you dont ever think to opened your mind with me??
when you said that you wanna break this relationship
i started to cry even you haven't said it yet
i always give you chances to change your mind
but i thought that it was useless !
you've changed
you're not the old boy who i loved the most
yes i'm absolutely dissaopointed
you always waiting for me to walk first
to do everything first.. than you
wake up boy !
you're the boy and i'm the girl
why don;t you think it clearly??
it's the love strategy.. you must be know it right?
you always told your friend about how sad are you to me
but you never said it to me
how could i know?
i always think positively about every problem we have
i thought that you're not a gentle boy
u just need your honesty
if you dont want to continue this relationship
it's fine
so that i won't be hurted anymore
you know , it's all your fault
when you said
i afraid you'll be bored at me.
i'll reply
no i won't. i won't bored at you
remember those words
thats my promise to you
i always think ..
the longer we're together the more you move away
don't you realized it?
you looked angry at me.. actually the one who always sad and mad at you was me
you never cares about me.. you cares about the other one
i guess you'll the one who'll bored at me
2 or 3 years from now on
i don't think that you won't say GOODBYE
i wish if someday you leave me for a reason
yes i will pray for you
if you're not
i swore i'll curse you. hahaha
i hope that someday i'll get a husband like what i wanted in whole of my life
i want a partner who always understand me
never broke his promises ,
always make me happy everytime i'm with him ,
always protect me
and of course always there for me
till the end of my life
but now i see
both of us hurts today..
we don't even know what to talk what to ask and what's our fault
i always give you times
times to think how to make me happy someday
make me love you more
make me don't want to lose you and always want to be with you
have you ever think about it?
i hope you have
have you ever think about me before you fall asleep?
have you ever dreamnt about me?
have you ever think about me every second you breathe?
that's what i've done
no days without you
every second , minute , hour and day
i filled it up with you
think that you'll be there for me
think you'll make me laugh and smile
but now?
no never do it anymore
everyday you filled my day up with tears
with sadness
with anger
with jealousy
aaahhh
what have you done to me?
you know i can't be tough and strong without you
i always remember every crazy things we did
did you remember it dear?
please don't be like this
i'm tired of being like this
i'm just an ordinary girl who needs love
especially your love
you're love is the one i want i need right now
i wish you were here
wish you'll hug me to stop my tears
wiped away my tears
can you do it for me?
if i know that it'll be like this
i would like to stop this love at beginning
but now.. i've trapped
trapped inside your heart
can't get out anymore
sorry pillow , i'll make you wet everyday every night
and sorry brain for overloading you with him
i can't stop loving him
will he stop for loving me someday?
please boy
don't leave me alone in this dark places alone
i don't wanna be alone in this big world alone without you
i need you
always
